I'll tell you flat out...
It hurts so much to think of this
So from my thoughts I will exclude
the very thing that I hate more than anything is
the way I'm powerless to dictate my own moves.

I've thrown away so many things that could have been much more
and I just pray my problems go away if they're ignored
but that's not the way it works
no that's not the way it works

When I go down
I go down hard
And I take everything I've learned
and teach myself some disregard
when I go down
it hurts to hit the bottom
and all the things that got me there, I think
If only I had fought them.

If and when I can rid myself of this crowded mind
I'll watch myself settle down
into a place where
peace can search me out, and find
that I'm so ready to be found.

I've thrown away the hope I had in friendships.
I've thrown away so many things that could've been much more
I've thrown away the secret to find and end to this
And I just pray my problems go away if they're ignored...

When I go down
I go down hard
And I take everything I've learned
And teach myself some disregard
When I go down
it hurts to hit the bottom
And all the things that got me there
I think if only I had fought them

Any control I thought I had
just slips right through my hands
while my ever present conscience
shakes it's head and reprimands me

Then and there
I confess
I'll blame on this on my selfishness.

Cause you love
and that consumes me
and I'll stand up again,
and do so willingly.

You give me hope,
that hope, it gives me life.
You touch my heavy heart
and when you do, you make it light.
As I exhale I hear your voice
And I answer you
though I hardly make a noise
an from my lips
the words I choose to say
seem pathetic,
but it's fallen man's praise.

Cause I love you.
Oh, God, I love you.

Life is now worth living, if only because of you.
When they say that I am dead and gone
It won't be further from the truth.

Thanks be to God.
Alleluia, alleluia.